I'll make you mine again someday I promise you my little grasshopper

you’ll never understand how I work.

i wish i would have been the one to ruin you
so much that even after five hundred days of
my exit from your life that you hear my footsteps
in your shower after a nightlong session of
lovemaking.

i wish i would have been the one to break your heart
and you would look for my face in every stranger
that you pass on the street and maybe you would bring
him home with you and imagine that it was me
touching you.

i wish i would have been the one who destroyed you
after loving you in the most wonderful way
that your world never stops revolving around me
but of course none of this is true because you beat
me to it.